Depression Talk - a Bullseye Drawn.
Were I capable of taking my own life, I probably found the place where it's done. Now that the darkest dark seems to have passed, I'm telling you what I found. I'm practicing reaching out. If you didn't hear from me, it's because I'm wary of your intentions. I know you care, and I believe you want the best for me. A hug can become an extra burden. Questions and empathy bruise when my answers aren't received the way I gave them . I'm afraid of being smoothed over. The standard response to things we don't understand is to disregard or re-frame, fit into something more comfortable for us; it's natural. The knee-jerk reaction is to drop everything and address someone else's problem. We instinctively seek a fast resolution so we can go back to tending our own. Please note I never used the words "someone needs help." Needing help is frowned upon in our culture, and nobody wants to be needy. We don't want to believe it ab...